I’m doing okay today. I stayed home from work and probably will be home the rest of the week. I had told my supervisor I was going to South Carolina with my dad, which was the original plan, but decided to stay behind along with my brother. I have some things I can get done around the house and an appointment I need to go to tomorrow anyways. I won’t get paid for the time I am gone but right now I think I just need the time to myself. I may not feel sad or upset but I think the lose is hitting me in different ways. For instance, my dad told me the news on Monday night and I woke up on Tuesday morning with a fever blister on my upper lip; two of them to be exact, one right above the other. While I have had fever blisters in the past, they are far and few between and I think the last one I had was over a year ago. Also, when Alan came home from work today I had just pulled up in my car from getting McDonald’s. I saw his truck there and figured he was inside already – no big deal. I put my things in my purse and started to pick stuff up so that I could go inside, when I turned to open the door he had his face in the window and scared the shit out of me. I was pissed. I went upstairs and started to cry. I don’t know if it was so much that he scared me or what has happened that got to me. Either way, I think I should stay home the rest of the week even if it means a small paycheck. Maybe it’ll give me a chance to look up some refurbished fitness equipment or work on the theme for my site that has been sitting there forever. Or…finish watching Seasons 4 of Dexter which I started this morning.