I honestly cannot describe how extremely happy I am, despite Alan having left to fly back home this morning at 6am. The last week and a half that I spent with him was absolutely amazing and filled with happiness and laugther – it makes all the rough patches we went through worth it all. We celebrated our one year anniversary (June 29th) with a nice dinner at a japanese steakhouse and seeing the movie Wanted. We spent a night with my cousin, Brendan and her boyfriend, Dillon having some drinks and the rest of the time was spent watching movies or playing Xbox – just being together.

Nothing was ever brought up about the issues we’ve had since being apart (which I always attributed to the distance we have been us) and yet in the end, we both felt at ease with everything and felt that whatever needed to be worked out, had been worked out without ever saying a word. We just needed to be together.

And while, it makes me cry because he isn’t here and he’s not there for me to wake up to in the morning, I am extremely happy because I have someone that I can trust with my heart. He takes care of me and I take care of him and he’s the one person I know will always be there for me when no one else is. We are in this together for the long term and I can’t wait until we can be in a more normal and regular setting. And while, at this point in time my situation regarding school and his situation regarding work is uncertain, one thing that we both know will always be certain is us and I wouldn’t trade that for ANYTHING in the world.