It’s amazing some of the things we will say to someone admist an argument. For me, I prematurely told Alan I had gotten accepted to Michigan State the other day during an argument, in hopes of diffusing the situation. My heart was in a good place, but I shouldn’t have said what I did. Granted, what I said doesn’t hurt anyone, the decision from MSU has played a major role in our relationship considering that if I get in I will be moving to Michigan which will change our whole relationship from being long distance to being “normal.”

I told him today that the argument we had and what had been said had scared me so much and upset me so much that I prematurely told him about MSU in hopes of diffusing the situation; I couldn’t keep the fact that I had told the white lie to myself, even though nothing had been mentioned again about MSU since that day. I figured it wasn’t that big of a deal but I don’t like the feeling of even the smallest of lies gives me, so I fessed up. He apparently has already told his mom that I got accepted too, which I didn’t know…

Bah. It seems lately I can’t do or say anything right and that I just keep disappointing myself and him. Even though, I said what I did, I didn’t do it to upset anyone especially him if it did. My letter has been sent out and it will be here next week which will give me a for sure answer…I just hope it works out the way I want it too.

Tags: Michigan, School, Transfering

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