There’s nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you’d go

I know I let you down
But it’s not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You’re the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you’re here with me
And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
Cause without you I cant sleep
I’m not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You’re all I’ve got, you’re all I want
Yeah

And without you I don’t know what I’d do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You’re all I need
And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

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Sometimes, we get so caught up in the world around us – school, work, activities, families, etc – that we don’t take the time to seriously realize, reflect and be thankful for the people that our in our lives that mean so much to us; sometimes, it takes almost losing one of those people for us to realize how thankful we are to have them.

I always knew I loved my boyfriend, and I knew from the moment that we started talking that my relationship with him would be completely different than any other relationship I had before. Over the past year, I have grown to love him more every day and have allowed my walls to come down completely to where I was able to give him my heart for everything that is it. However, I did not realize and was not prepared for how much loving someone could hurt at the same time; it is no lie that long distance relationships are hard as hell, and it is no lie that I have said some hurtful things and have been frustrated over petty things that I should have just thrown to the way side…but at the same time, it is no lie that no matter how much I cried, how much I’ve screamed, how much I’ve hurt him by the things I’ve called him, that he has never given up on me.

We have both said at one time or another that we were done, we couldn’t do it anymore, the relationship wasn’t going to work and many of those times, one of us has believed it to be true…but this time it felt more real than it ever had before, so much so that it literally made me sick. It was at that moment that I realized just how much I do love my boyfriend and how big of an influence he has been on my life. It is no lie that in the year we have been dating, I have been the happiest I have ever been since I moved to South Carolina. After not dating anyone for three years and literally throwing dating and meeting anyone into the garbage, I met the man of my dreams…and while, we have had our up’s & down’s that can be attributed to our stubborn headedness and our strong minds and strong hearts, as well as the distance we’ve had between us – I can honestly say that he knows me better than anyone, and he’s the one person who has had my back every time even when I didn’t believe it.

It may have taken a petty argument and him telling me he was leaving for me to realize exactly what I would be losing, but I would have rather that happened than to keep taking forgranted what I’ve had all along. My goal in every relationship I’ve ever had has been to make my partner happy and for my partner to be happy with me and I realize that I do make him happy by being me…nothing added, just plain ol’ me. I take responsibility for my actions, for my words, and for my faults but I’m also taking a stance and letting the world know along with my boyfriend that: I love you Alan Goodsmith, and you ARE the most precious thing to me because you give me that hope, you allow me to keep my head up when I don’t think I can, and you believe in me when I don’t even believe in myself. And like the song says above, “all the pain, the tears I cried and still you never said goodbye,” you have not given up on me even when I felt like giving up…for every time I ever thought you didn’t love me and that you didn’t care, I truly am sorry for the bottom of my heart because I do realize now what it is that I actually have and I am so very lucky.

I love you more than words can describe and I could never thank you enough for not giving up on me. Keep being my rock, and I’ll keep being yours – life isn’t easy but it’ll be easier if we live it together.