I was downstairs earlier when Alan called me and so I didn’t hear my phone; I called him back when I got upstairs and realized I had missed the call. I asked him what he had been doing and he said he had been applying for jobs to which I asked where. He gave me a few places he applied too and then I said I didn’t even know you were applying to other places or had been applying to places aside from the one he told me about recently - he said ‘I don’t tell you every thing.’ It irritated me, I wasn’t upset or mad or pissed or any other form of the word, I was just kind of annoyed by what he said so I told him that I didn’t want to talk to him anymore that I’d talk to him later - that pissed him off and instead of letting me explain why I would just talk to him later, he jumped down my throat telling me how I felt was ridicilous and hung up on me.

Nine times out of ten our arguments start over little things because someone hangs up on the other, the last time we settled our differences I told him that we weren’t doing the hanging up crap anymore because it only makes the situation worse. Personally, I can go from just being annoyed to being pissed off JUST because he hung up on me - that pisses me off more than anything. Anyways…it irritated me that he said “I don’t tell you every thing” because I KNOW he doesn’t but by the same token, he HARDLY tells me a damn thing at all. If he doesn’t tell me, then I don’t know unless a comment is made and I ask about it. I don’t ask him to tell me every thing, I never once have but there isn’t any need to jump on me for being annoyed. I feel like I’m not allowed to feel any emotion besides happiness and when I do feel something other than happiness especially being upset, then I just need to get over it. With him, it’s like ‘omg…Alan is pissed off, stay away, don’t talk to him because the world will come crashing down’ - it’s fucking annoying how it seems like his feelings > mine when they should both be =.

We haven’t had any arguments in a week or so which has been nice, we’ve been talking and getting along and alot of that is attributed just to my stress with school being gone. But I’ve also realized that I just don’t have the engery to argue anymore or want to argue anymore, but my feelings still mean something and when you treat me like I’m below you, yeah that’s going to hurt - especially when I’ve only been nice and decent to you…hell I even bought him a video game when I didn’t have too because he wanted it, but doesn’t have the money right now. So why is it okay for him to get pissed off at me, turn off his phone and be a jerk over something that doesn’t even warrant an argument? I don’t get it…and I didn’t think caring about what someone was doing was a crime, if it is I should have been locked up ten times over by now.

Tags: Alan

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