I didn’t get into MSU for the Spring 2008 semester – I was prepared for this but never the less, I was still upset. Upset mainly because I want to get out of South Carolina, upset because I feel as if I’ve worked my ass off for nothing since I started college especially since I went BACK to college after I did horrible my first semester. Of course now I’m kicking myself in the ass for being stupid enough for failing out…but what can I do about it now except try which is exactly what I am doing…trying and I feel like I’m trying for nothing.

The one person that I needed and wanted to talk to about it and just be able to say whatever I was feeling about the situation even if I may have been repeating myself from previous conversations…WASN’T, so I guess I’ll deal with it on my own. I have a plan, a plan for ME, MYSELF and I and that’s what I’ll worry about and all that matters at this point – screw everyone else.

Edit: Sometimes when we are upset, we say things we don’t mean – I was upset and I still am just a little but I know what I need to do next and that is what I’ll focus on for the next semester. I know that things will work out in the end the way I want them too and I’ll get to where I want to go…it’s just frustrating but that’s life.