Through out my entire life, I’ve always been bigger than the other girls my age, whether it be some significant amount of weight or just by a little. It always seemed to be rather difficult to go shopping for cloths too because I’m very picky in what I choose to wear and what I feel comfortable in. Having extra weight doesn’t always make me feel pretty, beautiful, hot, sexy - you name the word - and so when it comes to shopping, it can be a rather disappointing process especially when you see tons of cute clothes that you WISH you could wear but can’t because either they don’t fit right thus making me uncomfortable or they don’t come in the sizes needed. One of the difficult things for me are pants/jeans; I carry most of my weight in my midsection (and chest) which makes finding jeans that fit just right rather hard - they either fit through the legs, thighs, butt etc but are too tight when buttoned or don’t button at all OR they fit perfectly at the waist but then are freaking loose/baggy feeling every where else which is annoying. I also have a problem with length, at 5′5″ I have to wear petite length jeans in most cases and a lot of places don’t carry many petite sizes :( And then when it comes to shirts, whether it be a t-shirt (tee) or a nice, casual/dressy shirt it’s hard to find things that fit because I have big boobs - I hate things feeling tight around my stomach for OBVIOUS reasons but then it looks really bad if the shirt pulls across the chest because it means the shirt is too small.

I’m also rather conservative when it comes to my clothing too - not really sure if that’s the right word but it’s the first word that came to my mind to try and describe how I dress. Basically, I’m not one of those females who wears tight fitting clothing whether it be jeans or shirts, I don’t like showing LOTS of skin for all the world to see and I definitely don’t dress slutty by any means. Sure, I have low cut tops shirts, some that are REALLY low cut but I’m one of those females that will wear a cami underneath it rather than showing tons of cleavage or letting my boobs basically fall out of my shirt. It’s really disgusting, honestly, to see how some of the girls these days especially those that are younger than me (not by much) dress…seriously put some clothes on! And, yeah, some of it has to do a lot of not feeling completely comfortable with myself as far as weight goes but I honestly think that even if I was smaller I wouldn’t dress flaunty or any more revealing than I do now. As long as I look nice and feel comfortable that is all that matters to me and I definitely won’t feel comfortable if I walk into a public place and have men staring at my chest because I have a low cut shirt on…I don’t get off on that kind of attention and find it rude and disrespectful.

Anyways, I did manage to find a really nice, fitting pair of jeans at Kohl’s earlier! The best part was that when I tried them on I tried on the size I would normally wear in any other pair of jeans…and they were TOO big, so I went down a size Haha.

Tags: Cloths, Fashion, Shopping

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