It’s been a fairly long weekend but it’s only been that way because I made it long and stressful. Friday, I went shopping with my mom for some much needed clothes. I only ended up getting two shirts, but they were shirts I had been wanting for awhile; I found the same style shirts at the outlet store for $12.99 instead of buying it at the non-outlet store for $19.99, two shirts for $25 isn’t bad at all and ate dinner at Applebee’s. Saturday, I went over to my grand parent’s house and watched the South Carolina v.s. Mississippi State football game (we won, woot!), we had wings and chips for “lunch” and it was a pretty alright time. After my mom and I left there, we went to the mall because I wasn’t ready to go home. I found some jeans that looked AMAZING on me, which is hard to find but they didn’t have the length I needed. Even though, I’m 5′5″ I have to wear petite length pants/jeans because average size is way to long for me…I think it’s weird because I don’t consider myself to be short OR petite but meh; I have to call the Mount Pleasant store tomorrow to see if they have the size and length I need, if not I’ll order them online. Today, I spent all day sleeping, being sick and upset…

Alan has been really quiet as of lately and I know it’s because he’s upset that his best friend, Ben, is leaving tomorrow to move to Arizona. He spent a few days this week hanging out with him, then spent all Friday night hanging out and all Saturday + the night at his house; I’m glad he got to spend time with his friend, he needed too and I understand him being upset. It just really started to bother me, however, that I felt so shut out and ignored. The past two weeks, he’s been really quiet with me (he’s quiet in general, being more of a listener than a talker) and I felt that the closer it got to Ben leaving the quieter he would get; all I want is for him to be able to talk to me and open up to me…and it hurts when he doesn’t because I feel like I can’t be there for him. I got so frustrated and upset that I started saying things I didn’t mean: I didn’t want to be with him, I wasn’t coming to Michigan, etc. Ugh…I literally made myself sick. I know, stupid thing to do because in the end we’re okay and we talked…I just want him to be able to be open with me and let me be there for him, but only he can allow me to be there for him. I just hope that through everything and all the words that are said that he realizes and knows that I love him with all my heart and if I didn’t I wouldn’t get upset over something so simple and little. :heart:

Aside, from the shopping and the “arguing” I’ve been playing Super Paper Mario and anticipating the 20 days until I see my lover, I can’t wait. That reminds me, I need to call and check on the reservations for the hotel to make sure it’s all setup and such…don’t need to get there and be told “sorry we have no rooms available even though you paid for a room!” because that would be my luck, haha :rolleyes: Too bad we aren’t staying at a hotel like the Venetian hotel, it’s absolutely gorgeous but alas, the Comfort Inn shall do, lol. Also, I hope ya’ll enjoy the pink theme for this month’s Pink for October campaign because you have to look at it for the entire month I know…it kind of hurts my eyes too but I didn’t find any other shades of pink that worked together, that I liked, haha. By the way, I really need to uninstall Internet Explorer so that I am forced to use Firefox automatically; IE is so lame and nothing EVER works the way it should in it but works perfectly in Firefox…I’m just so use to using IE that I automatically open that browser rather than FireFox.

PS: The Rock of Love season finale is on tonight on VH1, yay!

Tags: Alan, Football, Friendship, Mario, Pink for October, Shopping, South Carolina, Website

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