Classes start on August 20th, I’m excited and ready to go. I need to put all my time and energy into my classes this semester as I’ve tried to do every semester after my first year of screwing up. I need to pass every single class I am taking this semester in order to receive my Associate of Arts degree that I am planned to finish with the completion of this coming Fall 07 semester. I’m stressing out already when it comes to transfering to another school, mainly because I’m worried that my first year of college will screw me over.

Like most people, I went through that period during my freshman year of college that I just didn’t give two hoots about classes. For once, I didn’t have anyone breathing down my neck to make sure I turned in home work and went to class; you don’t have to show up for class in college if you don’t want too and there is not a damn thing anyone can do it about it. I ended up failing out of my first semester (Fall 04) and withdrawing completely from my second semester (Spring 05). I managed to do okay when I went back in Spring 05 and pulled B/C’s, however those D/F’s that I did make in my first semester at college still count towards my GPA and I’ve been working since then to bring it up. I’m not doing to bad with it as of right now, after this semester I hope it to be a low 2.9/3.0 when everything is said and done but it still worries me. I want to finish my schooling, I want to finish two more years and receive and BA in Psychology; it’s something I want, I just didn’t pull my head out of my ass until after that first semester and I’m hoping it doesn’t keep me from getting into another school. As of right now I’m applying too KU, USC (South Carolina) and MSU…we’ll see how things go.

Aside from the transfering part, I’m worried if I’ll have enough time to get everything applied for, sent in plus transcripts and accepted/rejected by the start of Spring 08 (January). I would like to just go straight into schooling at which ever university I get accepted too and decide to attend starting in January, that way there is no gap in between schooling which will allow me to slack off and not go back. If I have to absolutely wait, I’ll just start in the Summer of 08 instead; that at least puts me finishing in 2009. I’m just praying everything will work out the way I want it too for once.

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On a different note, as previously mentioned in a post a few days ago I broke up with Albert. After sitting here the past few days and having not talked to him since then, I can honestly say that I did the best thing possible for myself. I have no shed on tear or felt any pain/guilt/regret towards the decision I made. I was talking to Alan (which is the guy I’m currently talking too) and asked if he noticed a difference in my attitude/overall happiness factor and he said yes, that I’ve seemed alot more happy & relaxed since breaking up with him. It honestly is just a weight lifted off my shoulders to not have to deal with someone who honestly did not care about me or anything having to do with me; I didn’t need the added stress to what I’m already trying to figure out for myself.

I know it seems rather soon and comes off as “wow, she broke up with this guy and is already talking to another,” but one must understand that Albert and I’s relationship was not a normal “boyfriend/girlfriend” relationship. For one, we were in a long distance relationship in which we only got to see each other every couple of months and for two, I was doing all the work and getting absolutely no support when it came to trying to commuciate and actually have a relationship despite the distance. When I broke up with Albert a few days ago, I had already gotten past the part of feeling sad/hurt like I would have felt had it happened a few weeks prior or a few months prior to a few days ago. So really, I had already moved on without actually officially ending it until I could figure out the words to say. Alan and I have been friends for a few months and nothing more and he was there when I needed someone the most; so I’m happy to say that I am completely and utterly happy with him

Tags: Alan, Albert, Classes, College, Life, Love, Transfering

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